I don't have anyone...
Last night no... it's this morning....around 3 to 4 a.m...I just came back from work and my mom called me. Asking me when Im going to go back home. I don't know whose more suffered, is it me? or her? I knew that if I told her that I failed my subject she'll be mad and do something that I don't like. Like what happened...she said "I WANT YOU TO STOP WORKING THERE! IMMEDIATELY! NO NEED TO GO THERE ANYMORE!" deep within my heart...i was crushed...she broke my heart alot that time. I love her but then at the same time...I love my job too. They just don't understand me. Will they listen to me? They means my mom, my aunt and my granma. I think I'm a useless daughter. I can't give them what they want. Sometimes I feel like wanna die. Feels like wanna take knife and stab myself. But I know even if I die...nothing good can come out of it...I'm so depressed! I don't know what to do anymore! I don't wanna loose my parents. I love them! But they thought I don't! Do they really think like that?! If they do...then...I really am not their true daughter. Maybe this is just part of my obstacles that i need to face in life. But its too cruel! I can't take this anymore. Ya...thanx for being my parents! I'm not a good daughter. I'm sorry mom, dad.