Location: Tokyo, in front of Kimura's resident.
Time: Afternoon, Around February.

Mama: Welcome to our house Kaze-kun! (Smiles)

Papa: Don't feel shy, just ask if you need anything okay?

Kaze: (feels excited) Ah! Thank you auntie! uncle!

Papa: Hahaha! Just call us papa and mama since we're family now right?

Kaze: .....umm... papa...mama....

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will continue soon... a bit tired right now.

Hmm... Things didn't turn out pretty well for me...I always ask myself... Is my problem this big?! I mean... I hate my life now. I'm not being true to myself, not even to everybody. I hate it. I wanna go somewhere this Sunday but then...I have this feeling that my mom will force me to go back to my hometown. Sometimes...I feel like I hate my parents. But when I think back for what they've done for me...I can't hate them....instead... I love them even more. I'm useless now! I hate this! Don't worry... I won't commit suicide. Even tho I do feel like it once. I wanna runaway. But I don't know how or where or when. Am I ready for that? I don't know! I don't wanna loose my family but then I don't have any other choice. If I don't do this they wouldn't listen to me or even try to understand. Maybe I have lotsa sins that would make my life difficult as this. Or maybe this is just some obstacle I have to take. I believe in God. I know God won't give bad things to me. Every bad things come from myself. Everything is my own fault. But now I have to take a dangerous step. If I don't do this now...I don't know when I can do it. I'll retire from cosplaying now. This is so not me. I'm acting. I need someone...maybe what I need is not someone but...my parents... to just listen to me for once and understand. That's all. That's all I ever want in this world. I'm sorry...Mom...dad...I have to do this.

Last night no... it's this morning....around 3 to 4 a.m...I just came back from work and my mom called me. Asking me when Im going to go back home. I don't know whose more suffered, is it me? or her? I knew that if I told her that I failed my subject she'll be mad and do something that I don't like. Like what happened...she said "I WANT YOU TO STOP WORKING THERE! IMMEDIATELY! NO NEED TO GO THERE ANYMORE!" deep within my heart...i was crushed...she broke my heart alot that time. I love her but then at the same time...I love my job too. They just don't understand me. Will they listen to me? They means my mom, my aunt and my granma. I think I'm a useless daughter. I can't give them what they want. Sometimes I feel like wanna die. Feels like wanna take knife and stab myself. But I know even if I die...nothing good can come out of it...I'm so depressed! I don't know what to do anymore! I don't wanna loose my parents. I love them! But they thought I don't! Do they really think like that?! If they do...then...I really am not their true daughter. Maybe this is just part of my obstacles that i need to face in life. But its too cruel! I can't take this anymore. Ya...thanx for being my parents! I'm not a good daughter. I'm sorry mom, dad.

X3X3~!!!huhuhu!! My foster husband is Tsuzuki Asato!! and my foster son is Shinn Asuka!! hmm hmm!! Well here's a brief intro on those two!

TSUZUKI ASATO!
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He's a very sweet and loving and caring papa in the family!! He is soooooooooo damn pretty papa-chan in this whole wide world. He calls me honey and I call him darling. Tehehe...X3!! He works as an agent in FBI. He's actually a negotiator. I don't feel surprised since he's a sweet talker. uuu!!Lub lub him for that!! XDXD!! and he is 26 years old!! O my!! he's quite young to become a papa-chan! >o<!! Well i am too!! hahaha!!

SHINN ASUKA!
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He's a very umm.....i duno what good thing he has actually but then......lemme think.....o yah! he's a very good annd loyal even as a foster son. He loves me and Tsu-chan equally and cares us alot. He's a very overprotective kinda son. That is why I love him alot! Hugglesh him!! Shinn Baby!! o yah me and Tsu-chan call him Baby. We always like to tease him alot. especially Tsu-chan! X3X3!! hahahaha!! People around him don't mix up with him much though...awww poor him. He's kind of lone ranger or something, keep things to himself and doesn't open his heart to anyone. Anyhow, Rey is his only best friend. and I think that he already has a koibito by the way he acts...awww....and he is still in high school rite now and he's 15. XD!!

Okaaay Darling!! Baby!! We're going to go shopping!! Don't embarassed me okay!! >o<;;....

Tsu-chan: Haaai haaii honey! *smiles softly*

Shinn Baby: Why should I come with you guys....I'm not going! *frowns*

Fiiine.......I think Rey and Stellar is going to be at the store today.

[Rey and Stellar both part time working at the store we're going actually...and it's a bait for Shinn baby to come along]

Shinn Baby: Mouu....mama....haai haaii.....wakatta yoo!! iku iku!!

That's a gooood boy!

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My foster Hubby :
http://tsuzuki.fire-spirit.net/

My foster Son :
http://shinn.shota-candy.net/

Just listened to another BL DRAMA CD, titled Sono Yubi Dake Ga Shitteiru 1 & 2.....waiting for Cluster Edge 18 to finish and its RAW.....ahahaha.....I just can't wait for the sub anymore.....sooooo late!!....T_____T;;.........For now I have like about more than 10 of SUZUMURA KENICHI as the uke DRAMA CD in my BL DRAMA CDS folder in my pc.....YAY! But I still wanna hear more from him nyuuu!! Like Milk Crown no Tameiki, Thrill ga ippai which got him and Miki Shinichirou!!

Owh by the way! I'll make this LJ entries as my BLCD or any yaoi stuffu uploads page so that you guys can download it freely here...I'll list down aaanything i have with me and you are free to request anything from me! XD! hehee!! X3X3!!

I'll be uploading my stuff at Savefile or Megaupload cuz its unlimited and since mhyy internet connection is like hell rite now, so I'll be actively uploading em by next month! v___v;;...Bye bye!

Wishlist
Milkcrown no Tameiki (Narita Ken x Suzumura Kenichi)

Thrill ga Ippai (Miki Shinichirou x Suzumura Kenichi)

YESH!! I am SUZUKEN fan!!! DIE HARD ONE!! >o